thinking
I’m thinking about quitting the blog. I’m not saying that I’ve decided to quit, but I’m thinking about it. I’m wondering whether if this is essentially nothing but a journal why don’t I just keep it on paper instead?
The advantage of the blog is obvious — it’s an opportunity to get some feedback on what’s going on. I love getting a response; suggestions, encouragement, sympathy, etc. from the people who read.
The disadvantages? I never know who is “listening” for one. Here I am, talking away. I might be talking to myself or I might be overheard by… anyone.
And I don’t know if it is this way for everyone else but I speak differently depending on who is around. Am I speaking to somebody who shares my faith? Am I speaking to some one who knows the person I’m complaining about? Am I speaking to somebody who knows where I come from? Etc. And not knowing the answer to those types of questions is starting to get to me.
I’ve recently had the experience (not for the first time) of revealing too much of myself to somebody in real life, and I regret it. It makes me worry about what may be revealed in this context, too.
Because God knows I don’t really want anybody to see me.
Ha. So, here’s the thing. I’m out of time, I have to go and get Jessica from school. Do I hit publish on a post like this one?
This time, I will.
January 21st, 2010 at 1:51 pm
I hope you continue. I realize the risk involved with posting personal information, but I hope that you will find an alternative solution to simply not posting anything.
It makes me feel closer to you. Given our respective paths and geographical realities, I don’t think we could realistically have that any other way.
January 21st, 2010 at 6:18 pm
Thanks for that. That kind of brings back the reason why I started this blog in the first place.
By the way, I like reading yours, too.
January 22nd, 2010 at 12:10 pm
But…but…but, if you keep it on paper we won’t get to see important things like Samuel’s first teeth, and the kids Hallowe’en costumes, and know what’s going on in your world! Oh, wait – that’s sort of the point isn’t it? Well, I hope you don’t quit.
January 22nd, 2010 at 1:06 pm
Thanks, Helly.
And just so you know, you would be on the “pro” side of the equation.
January 22nd, 2010 at 1:47 pm
I am very guilty of reading all your entries but not posting often. I’d sure miss reading about you and your family if you quit, though… I feel like I know you all because of your blog. LOL! I promise to start commenting more often, too- promise!!! I think you have a very captivating reading style, and I *love it* that there’s someone else out there who can be honest and admit that not EVERYTHING about parenting young kids is all sunshine and roses… actually- you probably don’t know this but you have been a big inspiration to me… and selfishly, I really hope you’ll keep this going…
January 22nd, 2010 at 5:18 pm
Thanks, Michelle. That really makes me feel good.
I feel like I need to clarify, though, none of you are my problem.
All of my friends here are the reason why I’ve kept on this long; because I love hearing from you!
It’s more that I worry about who my lurkers are, I guess. I’m probably just being silly — as usual.
February 3rd, 2010 at 12:33 pm
you don’t say anything that would be fuel for a cruel or evil lurker. you are very cautious and careful about your posts and i too, would miss them very, very much. the afton i know in real life is timid compared to me and i often run roughshod over her in conversations – this way, i get to hear you better … and i am always better for having done so. okay. enough sucking up. PLEASE DON’T STOP!
February 3rd, 2010 at 3:19 pm
Aw, Cath, that is so so sweet!
And I DO try to be careful what I post on here. Maybe it is good enough.